State-of-Mind-Five“Too much spirit” she said with a grin.

“I didn’t quite understand what she meant. Impatient with my musing

silence, she suddenly sat forward in her chair, opened her legs and

began playing an imaginary cello. Her long, powerful fingers vibrated

on the imaginary finger-board and her fine-boned arm danced fiercely

with the imaginary bow. She glanced up from her playing, fire radiating

from her eyes.

“Can you imagine,” she asked “what it’s like to have Wagner coming

through your vagina, up through your body, into your heart, into your

head and into your soul, night after night?”

Marion Woodman’s The Ravaged Bridegroom

In this excerpt the analysand is describing the new energy that has emerged out of the personal work she’s been doing. I love this description of her experience, it’s so visceral and potent. This is a great example of a voiced, empowered individual who has moved into a new way of experiencing life. The analysand is a cello player who has questioned and stepped outside her known boundaries into the mystery of the moment. Her previously held blockages of emotion have been unstuck in her body and the result is too much energy than she knows what to do with.

But what does this have to do with masculinity in women? Firstly, when I talk about masculinity, I’m talking about the ability to be voiced, clear and moving forward with integrity and your firm, personal foundation. The book that this excerpt comes from is a book that I re-read the same 4 pages for 5 years before I could understand what it meant. I learned that when you don’t fear your shadow side, you become empowered because you are not losing energy to controlling your fears. You build self-confidence in your ability to go and slay your inner demons. When you can slay your own demons, you won’t put up with anyone else’s because you’ve pretty much faced your biggest fears. This is like power juice for me. Once you’ve got excess energy, you begin to be creative in your life. This creativity can come out in a million ways, how you talk to people, how you dress, even how you walk.

This book is a psychological roadmap for women to heal their inner masculine. There’s tons in there for men, too. When I attended a weekend workshop with Marion Woodman 5 years ago at UBC, it had a powerful effect on me. But that’s another post…

She doesn’t travel much now so if you ever get the chance to hear her speak,  I encourage you to take it.  This book explores masculinity in women from a Jungian perspective and is a transformative read.

Too much spirit indeed!


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© Cloe AignerJust like my grandfather who told his stories from India, I love re-telling stories that help us to see and understand ourselves. I'm working on creating peace on the planet by working on both our inner and outer worlds. As Carl Jung put it: "As within, so without". Or as Maharishi said “If you accomplish something at the gross and sacrifice the subtle, what have you accomplished?”
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